Our Take: Julien Baker Confronts Herself, Relationships and Morality in ‘Turn Out the Lights’

Julien Baker © Eric Ryan Anderson
Julien Baker © Eric Ryan Anderson

The Breakdown

Julien Baker’s sophomore album exists as a valiant storytelling of pain, self-contempt, and anxiety including the many unsuccessful attempts to escape it.

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I discovered Julien Baker through an NPR segment back in spring 2015. After initially hearing her haunting vocals and raw acoustic sound, I knew I had to investigate more. I searched throughout my usual channels including Spotify, social media, and eventually YouTube. Simplicity and sincerity are the two qualities that attract me to musicians above everything else. To me, art should be honest and the honesty loses its enchantment the more flash, pop, and bang you add to it. Julien Baker can create a flash, pop, and bang singing in an empty parking lot wearing a flannel while being filmed by a handheld camcorder – and yes I’m referring to a video that actually exists. Her independently filmed video for “Something” embraces all the reasons why I feel this Memphis-born songwriter is an artist for the ages.

Her debut album, Sprained Ankle, appeared near the end of 2015. Her ballads about heartbreak stir souls and wake spirits; each more breathtaking than the last. Out via Matador Records, Baker’s sophomore record Turn Out the Lights arrived ready to overpass its wistful predecessor. Turn Out the Lights opens with the instrumental track “Over.” We hear doors closing, footsteps moving closer, and piano keys reverberate their way into the space; it’s as if we entered a room alone with Baker and she’s ready to tell her story from beginning to end without interruption. It’s our 1:28 long moment to prepare for aches and confrontation ahead of us. “Over” fades fluidly into the first single off the album “Appointments,” a tale of disappointing friends and wrestling with self-loathing. Many of the tracks on this album express Baker’s feelings of outcast and difference. “Appointments” serves as our introduction to the theme that will urge us to offer help and itch for a glimpse of hope. Turn Out the Lights in all it’s beauty is a hard listen – it’s courageous, depressing, and necessary.

Listen: Turn Out the Lights – Julien Baker

“Turn Out the Lights” depicts a conversation with herself late at night in the bedroom. It’s the moment when your room goes dark and you’re left all alone with your thoughts. The regretful, hateful insomnia sets in and yanks Baker out of a dream. “Myself” begs for comfort and sleep, but “me” doesn’t let go until she remembers all of her faults and failures.

Can you help me?
I just wanted to go to sleep
Can I turn out the lights?
Can I turn out the lights?
There’s no one left
Between myself and me
– Julien Baker, “Appointments

Turn Out the Lights doesn’t include a single song that conforms to the traditional song structure of verse, chorus, and bridge. Baker thinks out loud which doesn’t always look pretty or uniform. Her thoughts scramble and resettle into free verse poems rich with metaphors and eye-opening imagery. “Sour Breath” includes one of my favorite lyrical passages.

Turn Out the Lights - Julien Baker
Turn Out the Lights – Julien Baker (c) 2017
But I shouldn’t have built a house
in the middle of your chest

Plywood boards joined at your breast
Splinter in my arm
where you rest your head

Checking my watch till you come to bed
Kiss me goodnight with your sour breath
Breaks on my face
like a wave of emptiness

And when I talk just taste regret
You’re everything I want
and I’m all you dread
– Julien Baker, “Sour Breath

Many people build homes within lovers that glisten from viewpoint of the elegant front door but splinter behind the curtains. Baker yearns for this connection but feels that her partner dreads her presence. The trauma of opening your heart to another who consistently makes you feel less than your worth damages the psyche. The relationship embodied in “Sour Breath” feels like the catalyst for the entirety of Turn Out the Lights; it ignites self-deprecation and encourages the person to feel the blame on their backs instead of launching it towards the true transgressor.

“Televangelist” and “Everything That Helps You Sleep” echo with Christian symbols and her roots in spirituality. She mentions crucifixes, cathedrals, and the Holy ghost. With the addition of piano and even organs, Baker designs modern day hymns for both the spiritual and spiritless. The addition of this style of imagery surprised but didn’t turn me off of Baker. It seems to undertone her feelings in a new light that would not have been achieved without the desperate aching towards a greater power to aide her in her quest to find a new Julien.

Julien Baker © Eric Ryan Anderson
Julien Baker © Eric Ryan Anderson

“Happy to Be Here” and “Hurt Less” show us that Baker has been dealing with tough introspection for years. In “Happy to Be Here” she requests new circuitry and questions how the creator could’ve made such a mistake. Baker drops hints of attempting to alleviate her pain through drugs, cigarettes, and alcohol, but we soon realize these outlets haven’t alleviated anything.

A diagram of faulty circuitry explains how I was made
And now the engineer is listening as I voice all my complaints
From an orchestra of shaking metal keeping me awake
I was just wondering if there was any way that you made a mistake
– Julien Baker, “Happy to Be Here

Overall, Julien Baker’s second album shimmers with an overcast beauty across a calm lake of sadness. Some of her stories were harder to follow this time. Her run-on sentences felt familiar but caused the messages to be less accessible to the listener. By the end, I felt a bit hopeless in my endeavor to help this poor soul. In all their beauty, many of the tracks and sentiments felt redundant by the time I reached “Claws in Your Back.” Nevertheless, her lyricism is unparalleled; Turn Out the Lights includes breathtaking imagery and harsh realizations every person has as they come of age. Julien Baker’s sophomore album exists as a valiant storytelling of pain, self-contempt, and anxiety including the many unsuccessful attempts to escape it.

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:: Julien Baker 2017 Tour ::

11/14/17 – Berlin, Ger – Heimathafen Neukölln
11/15/17 – Hamburg, Ger – Uebel & Gefährlich
11/16/17 – Düsseldorf, Ger – Bachsaal
11/17/17 – Madrid, Spain – Sala El Sol
11/18/17 – Braga, Portugal – Theatro Circo
11/19/17 – Barcelona, Spain – La
11/29/17 – Knoxville, TN – Bijou Theatre
11/30/17 – Nashville, TN – Marathon Music Works
12/1/17 – Memphis, TN – 1884 Lounge, Minglewood Hall
12/2/17 – St Louis, MO – Delmar Hall
12/4/17 – Boulder, CO – Fox Theatre
12/6/17 – Missoula, MT – Top Hat
12/7/17 – Spokane, WA – The Bartlett
12/8/17 – Seattle, WA – Neptune Theatre
12/9/17 – Vancouver, BC, Canada Rickshaw
12/10/17 – Portland, OR – Aladdin Theater
12/12/17 – San Francisco, CA – The Fillmore
12/14/17 – Los Angeles, CA – Downtown Palace Theater
12/15/17 – San Diego, CA – Irenic
12/16/17 – Phoenix, AZ – The Crescent Ballroom
12/18/17 – Austin, TX – Emo’s Austin
12/19/17 – Houston, TX – The Heights Theater
12/20/17 – Dallas, TX – Kessler Theater
1/26/18 – Shibuya, Japan – WWW
1/28/18 – Osaka, Japan – Conpass
tix & more info @ julienbaker.com
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