Premiere: Her Silo Digs for Hope in Darkness on "When Did I Give Up This Fight"

Raw and emotional, Her Silo’s song “When Did I Give Up This Fight” isn’t about finding hope, but rather the act of pushing oneself up from anxiety or depression and beginning the search.

“When Did I Give Up This Fight” – Her Silo

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It’s hard to find hope in a pit of darkness; despair surrounds, and it’s so much easier to dwell in those feelings than to dig your way out. Yet as Seattle’s Her Silo so resoundingly expresses in her latest single, we have to fight for ourselves — and part of that means making our own light. A raw and emotionally potent song, “When Did I Give Up This Fight” isn’t about finding hope, but rather the act of pushing oneself up from anxiety or depression and beginning the search.

Don't Forget the Heart That's Beating - Her Silo — Don’t Forget the Heart That’s Beating – Her Silo

I wanna feel alive
I wanna know it’s alright
To tear it down and burn inside

When did I give up this fight
When did I forget to try

Atwood Magazine is proud to be premiering “When Did I Give Up This Fight,” the final single and closing track taken from Her Silo’s forthcoming debut album Don’t Forget The Heart That’s Beating (produced by Joshua James and independently out February 21, 2020). The indie folk project of Seattle singer/songwriter Jessica Lambert, Her Silo packs her first record with fuzzy warm guitars, the occasional piano or organ, and a rich array of harmonies that dazzle as they shine with emotional resonance. The final track off a record that catalogs the artist’s journey through anxiety and depression, “When Did I Give Up This Fight” is a somber, poignant, and fitting finale that shines with what Her Silo does best.

“[It] was the last song we recorded for this album,” Her Silo tells Atwood Magazine. “When I brought this song to Joshua it was a simple fingerpicked melody along with my vocals, so it grew quite a bit in the studio. This is one of the most personal songs on the album, and the song I find it hardest to talk about, but it’s about searching for hope in a place of darkness. It’s about trying to remind yourself of who you are despite where you are in the struggle. When we were finishing this song Joshua brought out a harmonica and I remember not being too crazy about the idea, but I decided to trust him and see where it would lead. I ended up falling in love with it and now the harmonica is one of my favorite parts of this song. I feel like it expresses emotions that I didn’t have the ability or courage to express on my own.”

Chase that gold
Get your high
I believe it’s alright
To wish for more and burn inside

But when did I give up this fight
When did I forget to try

There’s nothing easy or simple about Her Silo’s endeavor; her words are as bare as the soul she strips down in song. She’s searching for meaning – a reason to hope; something to cling to. The verses, though sparse, echo the turmoil boiling within her — a vast emptiness longing for fulfillment, happiness, and serenity. “When Did I Give Up This Fight” aches with a heavy weight, but the artist’s chorus line, “When did I give up this fight? When did I forget to try?” says it all: We can’t guarantee anything, but we have to at least try.

Just as the sun follows every moon, we have to get out of bed in the morning. We have to push through each day, and do our best to make the most of what little time we have. It may be too much to seize each moment, but the least we can do is try: It’s our duty to ourselves.

“When Did I Give Up This Fight” is a reminder to try.

It’s a poignant, humbling, somber song with a subtle drop of hope sprinkled in. Maybe it’s the moment everything turns around; maybe it’s just one small spark in a vast ayss. Her Silo isn’t offering any guarantees; she can’t promise anything herself, she’s committed to taking the first step, and that’s all that matters.

Stream Her Silo’s debut album Don’t Forget The Heart That’s Beating this Friday, February 21, 2020)!

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“When Did I Give Up This Fight” – Her Silo

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