Today’s Song: A Gorgeous Outpour of Heartbreak, Hope, and Honesty with CYN’s “I’ll Still Have Me”

CYN © Garth Badger
CYN © Garth Badger
Serving as a sincere proclamation of self-love, CYN’s “I’ll Still Have Me” explores the aftermath of a failed relationship with a performance that is both haunting and beautiful.

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After a relationship ends, once the dust settles, there are two paths one can venture down: succumbing to the hurt or learning to pick oneself up and move forward. Despite the difficulties, CYN opted for the latter and expresses her journey through her latest single, “I’ll Still Have Me.”

I broke my back ’cause
I thought you would too
I’d run in circles
I thought you would too
Listen: “I’ll Still Have Me” – CYN

I'll Still Have Me - CYN
I’ll Still Have Me – CYN

Michigan-born pop artist Cynthia Nabozny has had dreams of grandeur for some time, often viewing cities as nothing more than playgrounds and each day of her life as a new, big adventure. One of those adventures ended up landing her a spot at Unsub Records where she took the tongue-in-cheek stage name CYN. Through the numerous singles she has dropped since 2017, CYN has showcased an ineffable talent that stuns and one that easily cements her as an artist to watch.

Maybe in another life
Everything worked out alright
And things that made
this harder passed us by
But there’s no bad dream
to wake up from
Know I got it bad when it’s the morning
And you’re all that’s on my mind

With “I’ll Still Have Me,” CYN showcases exactly why she is someone to look out for. With its stripped-back melodies, CYN’s mellifluous voice takes center stage, one that can leave a room with an awe-induced silence lasting for hours. Throughout the track, sprinkles of string arrangements enter the mix to add an additional texture that aids in winding up the emotional punch the song delivers.

CYN © Garth Badger
CYN © Garth Badger
No more riding on the train
No more smoking in the alley
Now my secrets only stay with me
Everybody knows I’m upset
They don’t even have to ask it
They know I believed in us last week

Throughout the sorrowful ballad, CYN reminisces about past decisions and ways she handled her relationship with lyrics like “I never thought twice ‘cause you were my number one/I put you first ‘cause you were my only thought.” Each word in the track has a purpose, making for a passionate and honest pouring of emotions. Yet despite the somber tone and rhythms, hope shines through until the very last second of the song.

If I don’t have you
At least I’ll still have me
And if I don’t have you
At least I’ll still have me

Audibly, “I’ll Still Have Me” haunts listeners in the most beautiful way, and visually one would be hard-pressed not to feel the tear ducts acting up. The music video begins with pairs of the elderly as they discuss their treasured loves. After all, who better to divulge into the confusing, blissful world of love than those who have lived through each of its stages? After they give their insight, the video takes the viewer into a community center where CYN takes the stage. As she begins singing, one particular woman is given attention. As the rest of the individuals dance with their partners, she sits alone.

CYN © Lauren Naylor
CYN © Lauren Naylor

Viewers soon see her prepare herself for the evening earlier in the day where she softly kisses a photo of her beloved, which is implied has passed. As is the theme of the tune, the lone woman is not filled with hurt but is rather living to the fullest while gracefully swaying to the beat. At the video’s end, CYN sends off the viewers with a smile, but a faint tear can be made out as the screen dims. It’s not an easy path to venture down, but that shouldn’t stop anyone from attempting. Find sanctuary in yourself, focus on what’s ahead, and know that the hurt taking place is nothing more than an onerous, but ephemeral, part of the process.

There’s no reason to speak badly
We just reached our end
I will see you in parts of me
In who I was back then
If I don’t have you
At least I’ll still have me
And if I don’t have you
At least I’ll still have me, me, me

Unfettered from the restraints of heartache, CYN has crafted a piece of music that seduces the ear and warms the heart with its perfect blend of somber and sweet while avoiding the saccharin pitfalls other artists and tracks have fallen into. For someone still so early in their career, she has already proven to be a titan in the industry. As we at Atwood Magazine eagerly await her debut, one thing is for certain: it will be worth the wait.

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I'll Still Have Me - CYN

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* = supporting Years & Years
October 12: Paradise– Boston, MA*
October 13: MTELUS– Montreal, QB*
October 15: Vic Theatre – Chicago, IL*
October 16: First Avenue – Minneapolis, MN*
October 17: The Truman -– Kansas City, MO*
October 19: Canton Hall -– Dallas, TX*
October 20: Emo’s – Austin, TX*
October 22: Ogden Theatre – Denver, CO*
October 23: Union Event Center – Salt Lake City, UT*
October 25: The Wiltern – Los Angeles, CA*
October 26: Warfield Theatre – San Francisco, CA*
October 28: Crystal Ballroom – Portland, OR*
October 29: Commodore Ballroom – Vancouver, BC*
October 30: The Showbox – Seattle, WA*
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