Cinematic and soaring, CANNXN’s debut EP ‘Will I Always Feel This Way?’ is a dynamic outpouring of inner tension and release: A sweetly stirring three-track upheaval blending angsty pop punk with buoyant indie pop elements to dramatic effect.
Stream: ‘Will I Always Feel This Way?’ – CANNXN
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Cinematic and soaring, CANNXN’s debut EP is a dynamic outpouring of inner tension and release: A sweetly stirring three-track upheaval blending angsty pop punk with buoyant indie pop elements to dramatic effect. Born out of anxiety and brimming with passion, Will I Always Feel This Way? is a thrilling set ready to get us moving, grooving, and feeling.
I’m crying in my car, for the fourth time today
Told my friends things were better, but that was yesterday
Cause now the weathers got me down
I’m trying to think of a way to explain
Where I’ve been and why my laugh doesn’t sound the same
Oh will I always feel this way?
Will I always feel this way?
Walk through the doors and
I’m good, wear a smile like I should
Wipe the tears from my face,
tell everybody things are so great
Oh will I always feel this way?
– “Will I Always Feel This Way?” – CANNXN
Atwood Magazine is proud to be premiering Will I Always Feel This Way?, CANNXN’s independently-released debut EP (out April 21, 2021). The musical moniker for Seattle, Washington-based singer and songwriter Megan Cannon, CANNXN has been active in the Pacific Northwest over the past five years and released her first single in 2020. While her songs “Outer Space” and “Uncomfortable” have made for an exciting start to her career, the three songs comprising Will I Always Feel This Way? feel like the “real” artist introduction.
Between the intimate intensity of title track “Will I Always Feel This Way?,” the aching fragility of “Lonely in the Morning,” and the gorgeous pulse of the demo track “Nightmare,” CANNXN establishes herself as a fiery blend of indie pop and pop-punk: Full of flare and fire, her music stuns with electric energy while embracing big melodies and glistening sonics. It’s a whirlwind of emotional musicality and confessional lyricism that hits hard, and leaves us wanting more.
Experience the full record via our exclusive stream, and peek inside CANNXN’s Will I Always Feel This Way? EP with Atwood Magazine as the artist goes track-by-track through the music and lyrics of her debut!
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Stream: ‘Will I Always Feel This Way?’ – CANNXN
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:: Inside Will I Always Feel This Way? ::
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Will I Always Feel This Way?
Writing this song let a lot of the weight off my shoulders. I can still remember the main moments I wrote it about. Throughout the last two years I had been attending school, going to work, and had little time at all to work on music, or anything that made me happy at all. Coming back to this repetitive schedule without a break was hard, especially after such an unstructured couple of months where I was at home on lockdown, and it felt really uncontrollable. Since both
my work and school commitments were very customer service oriented, it became really hard to put on the happy, cheerful, creative personality that people knew me for when I just felt so drained. It began to feel like there was no real point anymore. I was having 2-3 panic attacks daily and I struggled to be able to get through my shift or school day without crying every five minutes. I was at a part of my life where it felt like the feeling would never stop, and that’s truly where “Will I Always Feel this Way?” was born. Production wise, I think the build up throughout the track definitely accentuates what I was feeling. It starts out as something so small, and builds up to such a high energy that you can’t ignore it anymore, and I think that is definitely what the anxiety felt like for me.
Lonely In The Morning
While I was attending school, I spent a lot of time on the freeway. The commute was about 35 minutes, and during these drives, it became a very quiet and reflective time. I struggled quite a lot with the concept of going to school, because it felt like I was a failure for not pursuing music full time and working on that more. I think social media had a lot to do with this insecurity too, because it felt like everyone else I went to highschool with was doing what they always wanted to do, and moving towards such a great place in their life, and I just became kind of bitter because I didn’t think I would ever find that kind of happiness.
The days felt really repetitive, and I just felt myself getting sadder and sadder, without anyone to really talk to. It felt like I couldn’t reach out to anyone without becoming a burden. I think when you go that long suppressing your emotions and never letting anything out, it becomes really hard to go about your life because the thought of you ruining things for everyone that you love gets to be all consuming, and it drags you down. At its heart, “Lonely In The Morning” is really about being scared to talk to anyone because you know that your presence is a burden to other people, and while I know this isn’t true, that thought is definitely a hard one to let go.
Nightmare (Demo)
I wrote this song quite a while back in 2019, and it never really left my mind. Emotion wise, it lives in the same world as “Will I Always Feel This Way?” and “Lonely In The Morning” in the way that it is written about the insecurity and uncertainty that comes with getting older.
The reason it was never fully produced is because it began as a demo on my old laptop, and the hard drive on that laptop was completely wiped, so all I had left of my old demos was this track on my google drive. While the track itself is rough, I think the raw authenticity is what makes it special. This was one of the first songs I ever produced and wrote that really felt like the music I wanted to create, and it will always feel special to me because of that.
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Stream: ‘Will I Always Feel This Way?’ – CANNXN
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